Now i truly understand the meaning of 'the house is not a home' And guilty too. Both the men wont be here this christmas I got parties after parties which will make me Neglect my Mum. This makes me love my mum more and more She doesnt deserve it yknw, my mum is the Holiest hardworking pure and simply the best I have though i truly have a hard time Communicating with her smtimes. Its embarressing and sad to say We have no decorations at home Till the extent i went to ikea to get A small miniature tree versiin today. And even joked to anthony to lend me His home's xmas tree hawhaw. Its been exhausting doing nothing at home Not moving muscles just hibernating And being addicted to all the night tv Programmes, Cant w8 for school to start. I am trying to get my hunger for success And inspiration Back on track. Feels like im dead. Feels like i resigned from being The gr8 deep designer i wish to be for awhile. Thankful for my loved ones And my friends. God bless them all. Night.